s0rRy..

i'm s0 s0rry..i really am s0rry if i'm hurting u all dis while.it was really n0t wat i meant t0 d0.i'm such a jerk..i'm a bullshit.it is juz dat i'm n0t ready 4 a seri0us relati0nship.alth0ugh we've been t0gether 4 alm0st a year n0w,i juz think dat i'm n0t being t0tally h0nest wit u..it juz make me sick when i think ab0ut all da wr0nged dat i hav d0ne t0wards u.why did u hav 2 bring up da subject t0night???why did u hav 2 asked dat questi0n??it's n0t dat i d0n't want 2 answer u,i juz d0n't hav da c0rrect answer.pls d0n't get me wr0ng.i've g0t n0 intenti0n 2 play wit ur heart..it's n0t dat i'm regret accepting u but i'm n0t like da 0thers.my heart keeps changing n dat's wat i hate da m0st b0ut myself.i'm n0t da LOYAL type 0f pers0n.i really h0pe u understand me.i'm s0 s0rry b'c0z i accepted u immediately with0ut letting u kn0w b0ut wh0 i really am.i was juz t0o xcited dat time until i f0rg0t t0 remind myself dat i'm n0t qualified 2 take care 0f s0me0ne's heart especially urs.i waited 4 u 4 alm0st 2 years n i even cried b'c0z i used t0 think dat i'm n0t ur dream girl.it was da 1st very time i cried 0ver a b0y n dat b0y is u.then,at the time u asked me..i was like very happy n i can't describe da feeling.dat's why i juz accepted u with0ut thinking any l0nger but kn0w i really am s0rry c0z i kn0w dat u've hurted a l0t by my acti0ns,my sillyness.i h0pe dat i can change int0 a better pers0n with ur help,0f c0s n i kn0w we can make dis 0ut t0gether.juz stay wit me.everyday u keep telling me dat u will l0ve me 4 da rest 0f ur life n h0pe dat we'll be t0gether in JANNAH.wat i can say n0w is i really h0pe dat ur prayers,0ur prayers will be answered 0ne day.if we really are meant 2 be t0gether,then we will n0 matter wat.

tirEdnEsS

alhamdulillah..all set.kenduris at b0th sides d0ne.alth0ugh bdan  sgt klthn,wit xckp td0 n everything but i'm very epy 4 my uncle n my aunt.1st 0f all,welkam 2 da fmily,kak.Izzah..00opsi,mak su Izzah.Pak su asked us 2 calll his wife mak su n then we were like laughing but 0nly in da silent m0de.ha4.and then,we kinda xplain 2 pak su why we cann0t call k.izzah mak su as she l0oks damn y0ung alth0ugh she is 27 n0w then pak su l0oks pissed 0ff by 0ur statement n asked,"0wh,paksu nuar nmpk tua lar ea?"ha4.we  were juz kidding paksu n we tried 2 cheered him up as we d0n't want da seri 0f da pengantin t0 flew away like dat,u kn0w.??

we went back 2 0ur h0met0wn in Ip0h 0n wednesday at 6:50 in da m0wning..g0sshh,4  s0me0ne like me,yg 4 da past brp bln dah yg after sbuh td0 blek n 0nly waking up after 10:00 a.m,it is like s0mething unusual+extra0rdinary oke!!!we juz went straight int0 da car,wit sleepy eyes n br0ught 0ur bantal bsuk wit us s0 dat we can c0ntinue 0ur j0urney 2 da dreamland.da reas0n we had 2 b'tlk awl is bc0z daddy g0t an urgent meeting dat m0wning in JPN n he's g0ing 2 meet da ketua  sekt0r n evrything.at ab0ut 7:45 we reached 0pah's h0use n daddy started kicking us 0ut c0z he's already late.later 0n,we c0ntinue 0ur sleep.then at ab0ut 12:00 0'cl0ck we heard s0me0ne sh0uting as if there is a gempa bumi 0r s0mething.0pah started screaming n babbling wat kind 0f ank dra ssleep until lunch h0ur ...0ur kind 0f c0s.ha3

all da tiredness started after 2:00 pm.we had 2 d0 da bunga telur,s0uveniers n everything larhh.i felt like w0rking fulltime in a fact0ry but 0f c0s with0ut payment lerr.dat's0ke,dat's 0ke..think b0ut da pahala dat u received,adik.adik is actually my nickname at h0me alth0ugh i have y0unger siblings.d0n't be jlez k.ha3..
n then da next day i had 2 make da bride's r0om.yeepy,dis is m0re i like it.unf0rtunately,their theme c0l0ur is purple.why n0t pink??ha3.g0ssh,sbuk j.mcm lar blik pngtn aq.d0ing da r0om is much m0re fun c0z n0 0ne b0ther me at dat time n i feel very very peace 0ke.d0ne.da blik pngntn is d0ne n it l0oks juz perfect alth0ugh i prefer pink kaler but still nice.

the next day plak,we  were bz prepraring 4 da bacaan yassin n tahlil.0pah said,eventh0ugh we were happy 4 pak su nuar's wedding we have 2 remember th0se wh0 had passed away including 0ur at0k.t0o sad dat at0k w0n't be with us 0n his s0n's wedding.al-fatihah utk at0k.but still life must g0 0n..0pah invited 0rg2 msjd n ank2 ytim..the h0use sgt packed tp still mknn byk xhbis s0 mlm 2 kmi mlantak sgt lar byk ea until pr0t nk mlt0p dah.

SATURDAY,17 MARCH 2012-here c0mes da big day 4 paksu nuar.i d0n't kn0w why he l0oks s0 calm as if there is n0thing g0ing 0n.0ke,mmg larhh tnangkn.it is juz kndri,n0t da akd nkah p0n.by da way,during da akd nkah,paksu dgn skali lafaz j sah mnjdsuami kpd puteri sulung ustaz pahim,kak izzah.ha4.0ver la plak.
0ke then,the kenduri went very well n sm00thly..alth0ugh,at times we a little bit klam kbut sket.hell0,mna xklam kbut.tbe2 ad VVIP mncl at da wedding 0ke.he started shaking hands wit every0ne including me.0h my G0d,he's a man 0ke.it all happens in a splash,u kn0w.then,my m0m said dat her br0ther in-law,Dat0 Fatmi wh0 is setiausaha sulit Dat0'Najib invited several 0f his frens 2 c0me 2 paksu nuar's wedding.luckily,we had extra special g0ody bags 4 da VVIP.
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p/s:c0ngratulati0ns 2 b0th 0f da brides.h0pefully u guys will last 4 eva until ank cucu.n make sure dpt babies yg cutey2 0ke.:)